I have been in a funk lately. That is the best word that I can think of to describe it. A funk for a day or two is pretty normal, but when you feel down for several days (for me it has been since Thursday) red flags start to go off for me. I have to be vigilant to any symptoms of depression so that I can prevent it from stealing away as little of my life as possible.
I notice the start of the funk when the negative thoughts start sounding a little louder in my head. Those negative thoughts start playing on repeat more often and before I know it I can’t get them to turn off. When the negative thoughts are on replay they increase the anxiety and I feel overwhelmed and a bit like I am spinning out of control. Motivation goes to zero and I find myself ducking out of plans with friends and isolating myself. It is hard to explain to the friends why I am cancelling and it is even harder when they try to convince me to push through my funk.
Sometimes it is okay to just be in a funk. No matter what you do, you may not be able to speed up the funk. If you are feeling low, it is okay to just ride out the feeling. Do your best to take care of yourself and be kind to yourself while you are riding it out.
The best advice I have been given during my struggle with depression was to just be nice to myself. I have to remind myself of it often because we are often our own hardest critic, but no time is more important to remember to be kind than when you are feeling low.
Some things that I find that help me while I am in a funk are:
- Taking a walk or doing yoga
- Writing in a journal
- Cooking – this is a really relaxing activity for me, but you could immerse yourself into any task that you find comforting
- Take a long bath
- Listen to calming music – One of my favorite artists for calming me down during a funk is Explosions in the Sky
What works for you when you are feeling low? Share in the comments below.
The good news is that I knew that my funk was a result of my missing medication that I had to stop taking while I was waiting for my healthcare coverage to start. Knowing there was a light at the end of the tunnel was comforting, but it doesn’t make going through the funk any easier.
I can see this funk getting further in the rear view and I know that there will be more in the future, but I will ride them out the only way I know how, by being nice to myself.